Went to see a movie, Lars and the Real Girl, my kind of movie! Great character sketches, premise and plot, but admittedly not a movie for everyone. You see, Lars is a man who is only able to love a “love doll.” Lars is one mixed up puppy, albeit a lovable one. Lars needs therapy. But there’s hope for Lars.
When I began this blog, I was undecided how I wanted it to go or even what I wanted to write about, but figured it would come in time. It did and it didn’t. Now I find myself wondering why I do it at all. I’ve made some really nice friends in the blogosphere and that’s a good thing.
Have I not written what I really want to write? Maybe. Or maybe I’m not smart enough to write what I’d really like to say. Maybe even after reaching my ripe old age of 65 I still don’t know diddley squat as Grannie Leona would be inclined to put it. If that’s the case, then do I really want the whole wide world to know that I don’t know it?
I think I suffer a little bit of burnout trying to do too many things at one time. There are a few other things I haven’t had time for lately that call to me now.
I want to piddle around in the sewing room, maybe finish up those three squares of a 12 square quilt top, make a rag doll for my granddaughter–something far more meaningful than those plastic lead-painted versions out of China, and a Jedi-cape for my grandson who’s really into Darth Vader, Princess Laya and Luke Skywalker and plays them all with equal dramatic flair. He used to like dressing like a bear to go to school. But then the costume got too small. Or maybe he outgrew it.
So I think the best thing I can do for now is strive for more balance in this new phase of life, take more time to piddle and poke around to see what else there is I want to do. Posting picayune stuff doesn’t appeal to me right now, so it’s probably a good time to take a little breather.
Lately I find I’ve been putting too much pressure on myself to write and post almost daily. I’ll write and post something when I have something to say – which is what I set out to do in the first place. Hopefully that’ll be about three times a week. Makes sense, doesn’t it? One thing I know for sure: life can be really good if you just quit pushing yourself too hard. I’m starting right now. Like Lars, there’s hope for me.
Keep writing – I enjoy reading your posts.
Thanks! But I guess I do need to keep up with all the housework! (Gives me time to reflect and decide what’s worthwhile to post about.) Hope you’ll keep reading.
I guess you’re facing the blogger’s hurdle too. Probably all bloggers have asked the same question one time or another. I had a similar mindset and slacked off on my writing lately too. The break was a nice change. But once it started, it was hard to pick up the pace again. Although I think I’m back on track now. I realized that there’s always better things to do than blogging. But like exercising, your “reward” from blogging probably won’t be felt unless you keep at it. For me, my “reward” is to improve on my writing and creativity. It’s also something very different than what I usually do. So it’s been a great experience for me.
I know exactly what you’re saying here! I too posted every single day for quite awhile actually. Guess I always had something to say….lol
But then I found that my “real” writing was suffering. I wasn’t working on my current manuscript or sending out the finished one as much as I should. So I told my blog readers about this and rather than sign my blogs, “see you tomorrow” I now can easily say, “see you next time.” Because I honestly never know when “next time” might be.
I too always have WAY too much going on, but since I enjoy so much, I’ve found a way to balance that’s good for me.
Blogging in the morning, knitting in the afternoon before working on my manuscript, reading in the evening. NOW of course, ALL of this is subject to change at a moment’s notice….lol
But I SO enjoy your posts, so please DO keep writing….on YOUR schedule. Because I’d miss your blog!
Awwwww, gee, thanks Terri, Paul, and Ces for giving me the boost I needed. Terri is right on the mark with the balance thing. That’s what I was beginning to feel–that lack of balance–and for what? Adulation? No, really not. But connecting to others through writing is very satisfying. That’s what I guess I’m looking for in my blogging efforts. I’ll keep going, but not at the cost of my sanity and utter lack of “just hanging loose” time.